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I'm finally getting rid of some stuff that I have been holding onto for who knows what.... It's too small or just not me anymore. They need a new home. Most of this stuff is Lip Service, Tripp, etc. Image Heavy. Shipping depends on item.


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My LiveJournal Trick-or-Treat Haul
nuromantik goes trick-or-treating, dressed up as A Nice Witch.
_seraphim_ gives you 7 teal chocolate-flavoured gumdrops.
carloscov gives you 2 red cola-flavoured gumdrops.
certaininsanity gives you 9 light green grape-flavoured pieces of bubblegum.
eno gives you 8 light blue cinnamon-flavoured nuggets.
poh gives you 2 light orange watermelon-flavoured gumdrops.
robot_rabbit gives you 2 light orange coffee-flavoured jawbreakers.
scythrop gives you 15 white grape-flavoured nuggets.
sugartwins gives you 13 pink coffee-flavoured pieces of bubblegum.
tallulah_aloof tricks you! You lose 15 pieces of candy!
victor_skree gives you 14 red-orange cola-flavoured wafers.
nuromantik ends up with 57 pieces of candy.
Go trick-or-treating! Username:
Another fun meme brought to you by rfreebern.

I just realized that the lead actor [Lee Pace] in the TV series, 'Pushing Daisies' was a guy I went to high school with. He was a guy I had a crush on in my Senior year. He was one of those people that seemed untouchable, and was the lead in all of the plays usually. I recall hearing one day at school that he had gotten into serious trouble for taking a joy ride in a school security officer's {?} running vehicle. It's strange to see him all grown up with a successful acting career but I guess I shouldn't have been surprised.

So today I decided to say "NO" to Procrastination, and "YES" to Productivity. Procrastination and my belief that I've got a slight case of AADD are my greatest downfalls. I've managed to start 15+ books, and have failed to finish any.. although, I pick them up every now and then. It's hard to find the time for such a treat when you're bringing up children as well. This machine is a huge distraction. The television is also. The machines I ignore are the ones that are outlets for my creativity, i.e. the synthesizers, the sewing machine. It's a daily internal struggle to pick exercise over pure idleness, or snacking on a plum over sugar cookies. Why is everything a constant battle? AAaargh.

At the end of the day, this boy always makes me smile.

I imagine if I ever had a brother and he had a twin, they would robot-dance each other to death.

The days come and go, yet it all seems like a dream. My mind is sloshed and fuzzy.



I actually g.et to get outside of myself on Saturday. SKINNY PUPPY!
I have to admit I was a Tear Garden fan before I even listened to anything by Puppy..but when I was exposed, I was hooked.

I introduce Mr. Simon Phoenix Kiser.

On Thursday, November 30th at 11:20pm, Mr. Simon Phoenix Kiser was pulled out into this world. I went into labor around 5.00pm, and left for the hospital around 9pm, and when I got there things didn't go as planned. Simon and myself were sort of stressing out and they declared I'd have to go through an emergency C-section right then and there. It took a few minutes to knock me out and prep me for surgery and then 10 minutes later Simon was out. I've never been in surgery before and it was mighty surreal. I had no time to think about it or prepare for it mentally, but I got it done and when I came to, I was on lots of Morphine and feeling fine. Little Simon weighed 7lbs 7oz, a little over 18 in long and has blond, two-toned hair. He's a beaut. When the pics start rolling in, I will knock 'em out on here.

I am due in three weeks and I am so ready to pop this kid out. I went to the doctor two days ago and they said my cervix was still closed so I've not yet begun to dialate. In the ultrasound his head is down which means little Simon is preparing for his journey out into the world. I cannot wait to meet him and dress him all up in his little clothes. These past nine months have seemed like an eternity yet somehow it hasn't seemed long enough. In a sense, a part of my life is ending.. the one where B and I just lay in bed having a laugh watching The Price is Right...but a new phase of life begins.. the one where a little clone of us walks around and grows and makes us smile. Life is very strange.

As soon as it happens there will be pictures. I know.. not everyone wants to see pictures of your kids.. or hear about them, but then again who says they want to see pictures of you or your ugly dog, etc etc ha!

xo

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This was fun. Owen Wilson, eh? Ha ha




I don't know if any of you live out in the country, but both of my neighbors have a farm and it stinks to holy hell when they put out the fresh mulch. Ugh!

I found out I'm having a boy...which means the dream I had was correct. One of the pictures from the ultrasound I received is a perfect shot of his face and his eyes looking right at me. Deja vu/. The same baby I saw in my dream. Bizarre yet fits the way I see things. Most people aren't too excited to see the pictures but I couldn't stop thinking about seeing him move around and it became very real to me. We decided to name him Simon. Simon Phoenix. He's very limber and has these magnificent limbs that enjoy letting me know he's down there, alive and kicking. Twenty more weeks to go until I can truly meet him face to face.
My father claims that when they went to the hospital to find out what they were expecting, the doctors told him I was a boy. The day I came out, I wasn't. Very odd.
I always wanted to be a boy; felt like it was a mistake I wasn't. Now I can live through my son in a way.

I never liked children or wished to have any, but now I understand. Breye used to tell me you'll never know anything like it. It's like holding yourself in your arms. I can see it now.

More upcoming Provision and PV related events:

July 21st @ SIN13 [It's baaack!] DJ Breye 7x [San Antonio]
July 28th @ SIN 13 - Provision's Official CD release in SA
Sep. 2nd & 3rd @ A Different Drum Festival in SLC - Breye and I will be playing with Rename the first night, then Provision headlines on the second night.

I truly hope to see some of you out on Sunday. We're a four piece now, and it will be our first performance with Randon and Carlos playing together for the first time onstage.

x

JULY 11TH I find out what I'm having. Boy or girl? I had a dream last week that the baby came out early and was sitting there looking at me, and I sensed it was a boy. I willed it to go back, that it wasn't time yet and it went back. Very odd. I don't think I've ever heard of anyone dreaming of their child before it was born. Lots of very vivid and lengthy dreams as of late.

Oh yeah, we went to Disneyland last weekend, and you know what? it is the best place on Earth! Especially if you're into animatronix like I am; almost every ride had some sort of character peeking out of every corner. This place was FIVE star quality and nothing like Six Flags..each ride lasted much longer and our 4 yr old could ride pretty much every ride at the park! Pirates of the Caribbean was shut down due to renovations for the new movie which was no fun for me, but I brought home some fantastic POC knick knacks like Mickey ears pirated out with an earring and scarf, shot glasses, snow globes, etc.

Some of my favorite rides:
Big Thunder Mountain Railroad
Matterhorn Bobsleds [YETIs with red eyes roar at you!]
Haunted Mansion [breath-taking and superbly executed]
Splash Mountain [the longest wait there but you plummet 52 feet!]
It's a Small World [you just have to do it]

I could go on and on....... I didn't get to ride everything either.

They had fresh fruit stands and sold claussen pickles [which we couldn't stop eating] and churros!

Touch me
How can it be
Believe me
The sun always shines on T.V
Hold me
Close to your heart
Touch me
And give all your love to me
To me...

I Reached inside myself
And found nothing there
To ease the pressure of
My ever worrying mind
All my powers waste away
I fear the crazed and lonely looks
The mirror's sending me
These Days
Please don't ask me to defend
The shamefull lowlands
Of the way I'm drifting
Gloomily through time

I reached inside myself today
Thinking there's got to be some way
To keep my troubles distant

Touch me
How can it be
Believe me
The sun always shines on TV
Hold me
Close to your heart
Touch me
And give all your love to me

This was a lot of fun to make.



Breye doll!

Why is it that doctors and me can't get along? It seems anytime I find a new doctor they turn out to be completely mad and like to play head games with me.
I go in, they call the next day claiming something serious could become of these abnormal cells; I go back in, and it's nothing. I loathe feeling like something could be wrong....
I went to the doctor yesterday for 2nd baby visit, and it's like getting ushered around to different rooms and not getting anything explained to me. Today, we get a few different phonecalls from this doctor's office and no one leaves messages and you try to phone back and nobody there has any idea who called.
What a nightmare. I never trusted nor liked doctors.

I don't know if going as Dr. Zaius for Halloween being a 12 yr old these days would fly so much...I believe 12 yr olds now carry cell phones and have already been in a few serious relationships. I miss the good ol' days.

When I do searches on eBay it's always something from the past I'm looking for. I'm stuck in the past. The current day just depresses me and makes me wish I was somewhere else...not here. I don't have cable TV for a reason.

I currently am with child and wish for nothing but the best for it. I guess I will have to relocate to another time period.

What a wonderful day it's been. I've done absolutely nothing, except gain an internet connection once again... which has consumed most of this day; catching up, fighting the urge to go on eBay.

April 20, 1889 in History
Born:
Adolph Hitler, Braunau Austria, dictator of Nazi Germany, 1936-45

April 20, 1943 Edie Sedgwick, born in Santa Barbara, California, actor, Ciao Manhattan

That's all I could find.... I thought Stalin was 4/20 too but I think I'm wrong.


I just found a website dedicated to old school Nick programs. Pinwheel, Count Duckula, Today's special, Hey dude... ahaha



No, I will not go on eBay......

Since the neighborhood we live in pratically lies infront a Braes Bayou, I think it would be a good idea for me to get the f**k out of here. I tried to go this morning but the back roads I thought would get me somewhere did not and I started running out of gas so I turned around. Every gas station was out of gas and the ones that had gas had lines spanning about 1-2 blocks... I waited for about 25 minutes in one line, melting in my car on triple E so I went back home and made it some how. SO I'M still here.

I think I will try again tonight because if I stay I may be f**ked.